Friday-No different than any other day.

So, today I've been thinking.  I do a lot of thinking, not always a  lot of doing.  Anyway, I've been thinking lately about how my life seems to not be anything I thought it would be.  Too many times I hear, I need that, I want that, we HAVE to have this!  I feel like we could own everything in the world and still not be happy, especially if we aren't happy with who we are.  At least for me, that's true.

I'm trying to make a conscious effort to not have so much "stuff" and really focus on the real things we need in life.  I want to look back on my daughter's life and really know that I didn't miss as much as I think I do and gave her lots of fun memories.   I want her to remember spending time with her grandparents and how cool they are (because seriously, they are all so talented it's crazy).  It's funny, I was talking with my neighbor and she asked how my work at home job was working out.  I said it was still hard to find the right balance between work and family and to always seem to be making a choice whether it's work more or spend more time with family.  She said when her kids were younger, she made the decision not to work and her husband supported that, they may have went without things, but the important thing was that she was available as a mom when her kids needed her and they spent time together as a family.  I really think that thinking is what keeps coming back to me.  I get stressed out (seriously, I don't know how I made it through high school and college doing all the things I did and wasn't totally burnt out and stressed majorly, perhaps i have some weird hormonal imbalance now...) easily when I'm trying to complete something for work and have to stop to deal with stuff at home,  life shouldn't be this complicated.  REALLY, I feel like I've made it complicated for myself.

So, I've been thinking how to accomplish this?  I don't really know, but I know that I'll try as much as I can.  One day, maybe just one day, I'll figure it out and share it with the whole world, until then, I'll keep stumbling along.
 Most bloggers have such smart and witty things to say, well, if you do, please comment and I'll read it.  I need to start looking up verses and things that make sense to share and hopefully it will not only help me, but also others reading this. 

Oh, and the tutorial, still yet to come.  See what I mean?  Lots of thinking, need to do more doing from my thinking!